Ok, because I didnt really have pictures of before I started this whole weight loss thing I wanted to get an idea of what changes had occured and here is a general guess of the changes made in the last 7 months

So today marks 1 week from finishing the HCG diet. I have to say its one of the hardest things I have ever done! I don't know my exact feelings on it at the moment. I am thankful that it got me past the wall that I was stuck at, however, knowing that I couldn't eat certain things made it so much worse for me. I think I do much better disciplining myself rather than having something restrict me. The day I finished I didn't want cereal, candy, or chips. Everyday on the diet I wanted it ALL!!! I am proud to say that I have only gained 1 lbs since starting to eat regular food again, which is normal, my sister in law said that you gain water weight the first little bit while your body is getting used to things again. I have started workouts again and it feels great! I think I will keep up on this because it helps me not want to let myself down knowing that I have support of people. I might not post pictures anymore, or atleast for a while, but I love being able to write about my feelings towards this whole pain in the butt journey :)

Starting Weight: 186

Current Weight: 152
Goal Weight: 140

This week was ROUGH to say the least! With the 24th and all.. I LOVE fiesta days and all the food fun and such! I am proud to say that at all the park fun and BBQs no cheating! I wasn't always the happiest about it but I didn't cheat. I have to say with the picture below its the first time that I have felt like I have seen a little difference and I cried when I saw it. This may sound ridiculous but this whole journey has been so hard and I have been so hard on myself. I still feel like I have a long ways to go and I only have 1 week left on the HCG diet. But that wont be the end! I am going to start running again and pick back up workouts. I have to say that has been one of the hardest parts, besides the food thing that trumps it all, not working out. I loved it and got into such a good habit and now I have to start that again but I do miss it so I don't think it will be to bad!

Starting Weight: 186

Starting HCG Weight: 160

Current Weight: 151

So I thought this would get easier but its not! Here are my week 1 pictures. Its been a rough week and I am hoping that it gets easier! My biggest challenge has been cooking meals for my family and not eating them. I resent it a little bit. I am lighter than I have been in YEARS! But for some reason I cant get to a place that I am proud of myself!

I had my first weigh in today and the results are...

Starting weight: 186

Starting Hcg weight: 160

Current weight: 155

Last night was my first, and I am sure not last, rough night. Chrisitan and I went to the new Harry Potter movie. Being opening night and all we had to go early. We were there about a hour before they let us into the theater and we sat there smelling popcorn, hot dogs, seeing smooties... Needless to say it was quite hard. We came home and for some reason I wanted a bowl of cereal REALLY bad! Why cereal? I dont know! As I laid on the couch feeling like crying I tried to figure out what the real issue was. I started thinking about the day and this came to mind. I called my sister earlier in the day because I couldnt find a babysitter and was just getting frustrated and needed to vent. When she answered I found out that she was at my parents house. Sitting there with my mom and other sister. This has been an issue for me for a while because I feel like I will never have the relationship that I want with my mom or sisters. I feel like they cant let go of my past and it will always affect things. I have spoken to them about my feelings and it doenst do much so I try to just live with it. After remebering this I realized that as we walked out of the movie, the rest of my family was in line for the next showing. I knew they were there, I was the one that told my dad to get us earlier tickets so it would be easier on a babysitter. I think seeing them all together without me just set off the emotional flood that followed later. I know that I am an emotional eater. At nights after the kids are in bed I want to snuggle on the couch with a bowl of chips or ice cream just to relax and actually enjoy a meal. Most of the time I am not even hungry and I realize that this is not healthy and one thing I need to change. I still have the craving for cereal and who knows how or if it will go away. I have not cheated on my diet and WILL NOT! I want to loose this weight and be the woman I want to be and have my confidence back!

Today was Day 1 of the diet portion of this journey. For the most part it wasnt to bad. However, because you cant have breakfast, today was a little stressful. My sisters and mom were going swimming and invited us to go. I thought great get out of the house so I dont think about food! I didnt think far enough ahead, which isnt like me! I didnt eat before we left which resulted in my not eating lunch until 3:30. Once I got home I ate a piece of chicken, starwberries, and a cucmber. For dinner I had tilapia, apple, and asparagus. I am not worried about sticking to the diet, I am however so scared/nervous for my first weigh in... I just dont see how its going to work and I am not sure how to get past this feeling...

So I talked with my sister in law and we decided that I should start the drops today. Reason being is, today is my husbands birthday. Meaning we are have French Toast and bacon for breakfast and going out to Tucanos for dinner. Then tomorrow we are taking the kids to the Zoo. Both being great loading days. I started this morning and one thing I wasnt expecting was a little burn with the drops. You put them under your tounge and hold them there for 30 sec. It almost felt like holding mouth wash under your tounge lol! I weighed in this morning and I was still 160... not a surprise. I have been stuck there for weeks! 26 lbs down..... lets see how many more go...

Starting Weight 186

Current Weight 160